I have been in my depressive episode for a few last weeks. My regular meds* doesn’t seem to help much, unless the one I take to help me sleep** by totally weakening my joints. I don’t know if that’s what really happens, that’s how I feel. Like a roofie.

I was even lazier than that goose cartoon character which I can’t remember what his name is. And the voices started to sing in my left ear. Perhaps my left ear has a better audience or the crazier moshing pit, that makes those virtual bands keep playing there. I found a good way to get rid of that sound, by slapping my left ear. The songs will go, or perhaps just covered by the buzzing sound my slapping caused. Not a good idea.

Then I realized there was one medicine I took without prescription to make this playlist stop. Its name is Armodafinil. Armodafinil is good for consumption along with other bipolar treatment. I can’t understand why my psychiatrist refused my request for this medicine.

So I started my search but I couldn’t find Armodafinil, but I found Modafinil instead, which is something quite close. Modafinil initially is given to treat ADHD. My Modafinil arrived today, and I’m feeling much better already after taking one this morning. My mood begins rising, and I have a great feeling that I will get my postponed jobs done today.

*Depakote, Clozapine, Lithium and Fluoxetine for the last four years.
** Clozapine 25mg.